"I didn't want to, but...."

I have heard this phrase in many version.

Two great examples:

"I didn't want to go out, but my friend wanted to."

"I didn't really want to have sex on that date, but he/she wanted so we did."

Yeah, I can understand that there are times that you might do something that your other half wants (like watch movie) or go to a specific coffee shop that your friend wanted to go, but at some point I started noticing that people use this "I didn't want to, but...." phrase way too much.

And this got me thinking, what really happens....some have no personality, no voice for themselves and they can't say no to something? Or this phrase is just a cover up for not taking responsibility of your actions and the things you want?

Photo of the day!

Freedom

 

There's no such thing as absolute freedom. 

But there's always doing the best you can about it!

When you demand freedom from others and the society there's one thing you should do first of all: 

free yourself.

On the grade you can.... free yourself from ideas and thoughts that keep you from moving on with your life, free yourself from the rules society wants you to obey, but you don't really want to.

After all, your life is totally yours and you're living it, 

so why you should do it the way others want you to?

And change starts from the small things.

"Walking one noon"

Counting butterflies...!

"Where is my mind" - Pixies

"Where is my mind" - Placebo

"Because of you"

There are some letters that you can't (or better you don't want to) send, but still they're worth written. 

Lately I have been listening to an mp3 player I hadn't used for some time now. From there one day I listened to "Because of you" and a letter started forming itself in my mind...

My once loved one,

Thank you for everything you did.

Thank you for being who you were.

Thank you for not laughing, because you made me realize the importance of laughter.

Thank you for all these grumpy moments of you, because you made me really understand how important peace of mind and inner happiness is.

Thank you for the typical last text you sent me, because I saw some more of you true colors.

Thank you for the times of crying, because they made me realize how a good relationship shouldn't be.

Thank you for the point of view you had of the world and how critical you were of the opposite mine, because it made me be proud of the way I see the world around me.

Thank you for having your fears and especially those of jealousy, because they made me understand myself more and how ethical I am.

Thank you that because of you I reached to the conclusion that to others we project ourselves and what we want to see.

Thank you so much because you made me respect myself more and fight more for the meaning of "freedom" each one of us should have as part of a relationship and in life in general.

Thank you because you made me be more careful with others, but a ton more open as a person and soul.

Yeah all these things are part of the work I have done with myself first of all, but I don't think there would have become true without you being in my life.

Thank you for the good times (and the bad ones too).

Thank you for everything!

Prefer love than hate, and smile than not smiling.

Have a great and happy life!

 Angelina

Life (of a blogger) without a laptop

Imagine a person that spends hours in front of a laptop every day.

Blogging, editing photographs, listening to music, running an Etsy Shop, discovering internet trinkets, preparing a video art project, and usually doing all these while having a series or a movie playing on the background (listening to people talking and in general sounds helps me to work, gives me a tempo).

Imagine that person with a broken laptop (one day the screen went "you see me, now you don't!").

The first day I had a great breakfast in the garden and these last four days I'm reading a lot, listening to more music from my mp3 player, taking photographs as usual (and waiting for a computer to edit them, going pot with friends a lot, doing more embroidery work, still watching some documentaries and series I can find on YouTube (from my cell phone), but I'm missing one thing most of all:
writing my blog!
I write down on a notebook everything that I would like to post and the day came that my brother's Easter Holiday started and now I can have access to his laptop for some hours each day (lucky me that I'm waking up at around 6 a.m. each morning and he usually wakes up at around 12 a.m.!).