In three days from now, it's a special anniversary for me.
It's my one year anniversary and I think that that's the first and the last time I'm going to celebrate it.
One year ago, on the 25th of February, the end begun.
You see, myself back then was a person that didn't open up easily and wasn't letting everyone in. So, when I let someone in and they chose the exit (especially when they could have done it in a much better way, much...!) the end begun. The end of an era. The end of a big part of my life.
(I have written here again and again and again about it. And about all the things that happened during the last year. Humour me with this one.)
As I was saying the end begun. And hard times started. And a chaotic period begun as well. And more bad and unpleasant thing kept coming my way during a whole year.
And I fighted, I was defeated, I fighted back again, and this happened a few more times. During one year I managed to grow. And changed a lot, I became a better version of me (for myself first of all) and I improved my life.
2015 was my year of change.
2016 is the year of confidence, of growing even more.
But I think that I really have talked a about all the details of my change, I would like to focus on the anniversary.
Well, every fire needs a spark to start. If there's no spark probably there won't be any fire. I mean, sometimes I'm thinking that if the event of the 25th of February haven't happened, chances are that I wouldn't have done all I've done. Because yes, more things shook me up a lot during the year, but I think that this was the spark.
The spark that started the fire!
Fire can destroy everything, but you can manage to tame it or let it burn and take its time until it's the right time to put it out.
It's in your hand to decide what you're going to do with it!
And one year after, there are many burnt things, along with a part of myself. All these won't come back to life. Never.
But they gave space to new thing to grow in their place.
Maybe some things were already burnt.
Maybe the new things that grew were always there and they were blocked in some way or waiting for their time.
And their time started, 25th of February, 2015.
And one year later I am so happy and grateful.
The way I feel today about myself, my life, all the people and the world around me....
are worth every second of sadness, cry, rage, fighting.
Totally worth it!
So, I reach to the conclusion that maybe, no one should be afraid or bad things to come, hard times can prove more helpful and precious that you think. And yes, you're going to need to fight, but the truth is that when "shit happens" you have no choice; you're going to fight. And eventually win.
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