Sun is up!!

Open

There are these moments in life that you're so open to the world around you. 

Yesterday noon I took my book and my mp3 player and sat on a spot in my garden, where I used to play  "Romeo and Juliet" when I was little.

 I ended up looking around instead of reading, but everything was just perfect! Sun, wind, birds and clouds in the sky, some of my dogs sleeping around me and music. 

There are these moments in life when you feel so open to your surroundings, you feel the wind blowing your insides, the birds flying inside your mind....

....a kind of happiness.

* The photos are taken a little bit later that the sun was faint.

Some music:

* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PymO4dl5RHo

* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSPOCVjla_4

* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkoqjkGxg8M

* https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ivg3J3h5Ps

Project no. 3: "The black lines on the wall"

Project no. 2: "The shapes inside the chaos"

"Nostalgia"

Emptiness....not!

It's been some time now.

That day.

Things happen.

One day (that day, some time ago), I woke up and I realized how "empty" the world is ( I had some clues before that of course but it was that day when I really felt it).

I looked around me and I saw how hollow most peoples' lives are, how hollow most relationships are.

I've always liked "real things", so the realization of the emptiness scared me at first. 

And then I made a life-changing decision:

I thought that this world isn't what I want for my life. 

And since I believe that you create your life through your decision and choices, I decided that I'm going to create my world, also known as my life.

I want to do the things I want, the things I dream, have good friendships and find real love. I want to be honest and open to the world, say and do the things I would once wouldn't (usually because I would be afraid).

I want to be 120% myself and try to live the life I have dreamed of.

I'm on the process of that goal and things are going well because I work on them.

Every night when I go to sleep I'm thinking that "yes, you did the best you could, you were true to yourself and you truly lived the day".

And some day, I will be standing on a terrace admiring the great view, smiling while drinking my coffee (or some other beverage) and thinking that all I ever wanted is right here....

in my life!

Photo of the day!

Word of the day: faith

When in the year 2015, there's even one person that keeps a flower and smells it every once in a while working, you can definitely have faith in people.

There are (romantic) souls out there. 

Believe!

A beautiful portrait of Frida Kalho

Recently I found on the internet this beautiful portrait of Frida Kalho, taken by her father Guillermo Kalho.

Demons

(fun-time.website)

I remember that my previous "microcosm" blog, "The microcosm inside her mind" , had a few demon-haunted posts. 

But let's start  from the definition of the word demon. For me demons are all the bad (or not pleasant) things, situations, people that have happened in my life. 

In the past there were times that I was feeling them "sitting" so close to me that they where kind of blocking my air sometimes. But the thing is that as time passes and I grow up things change and the relationship with my demons changes too. 

Bad, difficult and unpleasant things keep happening and new demons are "born", but I manage to have them around without paying so much attention to them. 

I do listen to what they're "saying", but after all it's my choice whether I'm going to pay attention to them or whether I'm going to ignore them and keep on going my way.

I am scared

There are moments when I totally break.

I burst into tears, I feel as weak, small and alone as it gets.
(For those who know me personally, in case you think you have witnesed one of these moments, trust me, you haven't. No one has ever seen me in these moments.)
During these moments, I doubt myself, the choices I have made, life.
I'm thinking that things might go wrong. That my dreams might never come true.
I'm afraid that I won't manage to live a happy life, that my life won't have the happy ending I want.

I am scared.
Of the world, of life.
And I need someone stronger than me to be there, maybe hug me until it's over.

And there's this song that best describes these moments....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q0QBzX7zZBw

But these are only moments, they don't last long and I see them as bittersweet breaks.
After them I keep going, living, making my choices and becoming a little more free as a person with each post on this blog ;-)

I fell in love and I learned my share of lessons

I really loved someone for the first time in my life. 

Past tense. 

And now I know a few more things about myself, love and life.

Present tense.

1. Since you have fallen in love once, you can do it again.

(There's a stage where you're thinking that you won't be able to love again, that he/she was the one that created the special feeling of love for you.....guess what, if you felt it once it means you have it in you and it also means that it's going to happen again.)

2. People and situations rarely change.

(Change is possible, but only if people can and want to change things.)

3. Relationships must be about happiness.

( If you're in a relationship and you start not being happy, probably it's time to leave.)

4. Never let anyone take away that (even small) personal space you own and deserve.

(It's one of the healthiest things in the world for the two members of a relationship to have some personal time.)

5. In general, in life, you should prefer love than hate, happiness than misery and calmness than rage.

(That's the theme of other "microcosm" posts, I know. And yes, you can make these choices.)

6. Trust your instinct.

(For good, for bad, for love, for friendship, for life, for people and for situations. Always listen to the things you hear from deep inside you.)

7. Life is short, so get up and act!
(Don't wait for the perfect timing and be more brave, in general.)

8. Never lose your faith.

(You may have faith in yourself, a dream, people, a higher power, life, whatever it is for you, don't stop believing. Never!)

"The lilac backround self-portrait"

I just keep working on portraits (and self-portraits too).......

Black & White art